Healing for One est le deuxième album de Rosalie Bea. Plus personnel que son premier, ce projet plonge dans une démarche face au deuil et le sentiment de perte en explorant chaque étape, chaque émotion de ce parcours intime et vulnérable. L’album fait face au vide intérieur plonge dans le flou lumineux et obscure de la fin. La première chanson, Under the Surface, aborde le déni et le choc du départ. C’est le moment où l’on ne comprend pas et que l’on fige. La personne perdue vivra toujours en soi et on s’y réfugie. I Won’t Blame You aborde la tristesse et le marchandage. On acceptera le blâme au complet sur soi, prendre tout sur nos épaules pour retrouver le temps d’avant. Healing for One est la déconstruction symbolisant le temps qui se saccade, la colère, la dépression, le défoulement. C’est la vie qui reprend, mais en s’étourdissant, en se débattant. C’est une demi-vie. For Joy est la fin possible de la dépression et le début de l’acceptation. C’est la quête de la joie à nouveau et le premier lâcher prise. Clouds représente le souvenir de l’autre qui devient plus doux. Le temps se stabilise. C’est lorsque la paix remplace la douleur par vague. On ressent qu’il y aura une vie après, une place au-delà de ce moment. About Us close ce cycle avec l’espoir et la nouvelle vie qui commence. L’amour est différent, maladroit et apeuré, c’est vrai, mais il existe encore.
Healing for One is Rosalie Bea's second album. More personal than her first, this project delves into the process of dealing with grief and loss by exploring every step, every emotion of this intimate and vulnerable journey. The album confronts the emptiness within and dives into the bright and dark blur of the end. The first song, Under the Surface, deals with the denial and the shock of departure. It is the moment when one does not understand and freezes. The lost soul will always live within you and you take refuge in it. I Won't Blame You deals with sadness and bargain. We will accept all the blame on ourselves, take everything on our shoulders, to find the time before. Healing for One is the deconstruction symbolizing the time that jerks, the anger and the depression. It is life that resumes, but in a daze and in a struggle. It is a half-life. For Joy is the possible end of depression and the beginning of acceptance. It is the search for joy again and the first letting go. Clouds represents the memory of the other becoming sweeter. Time is stabilizing. It is when peace replaces pain in waves. One feels that there will be a life after, a place beyond this moment. About Us closes this cycle with hope and new life beginning. Love is different, awkward and scary, it's true, but it still exists.
01 under the surface
Are you just sleeping?
Are you still feeling
I just started to understand
I’ll take all your fears
And make them disappear
Very far if this is the end
And I will hide, under the surface
Just for a while, under the surface
‘cause you’re still alive, under the surface,
under the surface of my skin
Do you feel something?
Are you just dreaming?
I can’t let go of your hand
Give me all your fears
I’ll make them disappear
Very far if this is the end
And I will hide, under the surface
For a while, under the surface
‘cause you’re still alive, under the surface of my skin
Close your eyes
I won’t leave until you go first
03 healing for one
02 i won't blame you
Don't wanna see you going I didn't mean what I said
I've been lost in my words lately, in my mind mostly
But I won't blame you anymore
I will blame no one else but myself
Don't wanna see you going I didn't mean what I said
I've been lost in my words lately, in my mind mostly
But I won't blame you anymore
I will blame no one else but myself
Don't wanna see you going
Stay with me
There's always a place for you
I won't ever forget
Even in dreams we care for each other
I wish I could still fall asleep
The night’s loud, the lights are out
Trying to tame my weaknesses
Quiet kisses on my forehead
I’m on the edge of your soft skin I still feel
Dark eyes what are you staring at
you always notice when I leave the crowd
Love won’t look at me in the eyes
But fear walks me home every night
Don’t say I am running away
To heal alone
We are in a golden prison
Healing for one
Healing for no one
In my daydreams I rest on his shoulder
It takes away my anxiety
Found the best high I’ve ever tasted
Recovering since then
Quiet kisses on my forehead
I’m on the edge of your soft skin I still feel
Dark eyes what are you staring at
you always notice when I leave the crowd
Love won’t look at me in the eyes
But fear walks me home every night
Don’t say I am running away
To heal alone
We are in a golden prison
Healing for one
Healing for no one
04 for joy
It's exhausting being strong
Don't let anyone tell you otherwise
There are millions ways to heal
Every single one will wear you down
Try to keep your capacity for joy
Guard it with the rest of your life
It's exhausting being weak
Don't let anyone tell you otherwise
There are millions ways to break
Every single one will wear you down
Try to keep your capacity for joy
Guard it with the rest of your life
Guard it with the rest of your life
Light lives beyond this growing brighter
I know what I fear, I know what I fear now
I know how to say goodbye now
I've tried to learn
I know how to say goodbye now
I've tried to learn
I know how to say goodbye now
I tried, I learnt
05 clouds
You were the sun, winter's first cry
You made me dance on your feet like I could fly
We were so young, afraid of all
You gave me a shirt I still wear when I feel small
The world around will carry on
We had to learn to face it alone
Can't decide when, can't fight the end
Between our laughs and our tears
This is the strangest feeling of peace
Drifting away from us
Somewhere through these clouds
Skies are clear as water
We can still be
Somewhere through these clouds
Skies are clear as water
We can still belong
Moonlight on the floor, tomorrow felt breathless
Being apart seemed like we would live half a life
But for one last time, you held me in your arms
There wasn't enough space for all was said without a word
The world around will carry on
We had to learn to face it alone
Can't decide when, can't fight the end
Between our laughs and our tears
This is the strangest feeling of peace
Drifting away from us
Somewhere through these clouds
Skies are clear as water
We can still be
Somewhere through these clouds
Skies are clear as water
We can still belong
music : Rosalie Bea
lyrics : Rosalie Bea / Tyler Knott Gregson
voice, piano, guitar, synth, beats : Rosalie Bea
mix, drums, beats, synth, back vocals : Francis Ledoux
guitar, bass, pedal : Etienne Dupré
mastering : Charles-David Dubé
06 about us
It just felt like freedom
When you said you loved me
We saw so many face of us
playing hide and seek
Half asleep, half alive
The sound of you breathing next to me
Half awake, half away
The only place I feel safe
Promise you won’t try to change anything
Promise you won’t try to save me
'Cause between darkness and light, we become blind
But still need some time
To make up my mind about us
It just felt it was right
You made a home for me
We were holding back for too long
Everything I believe it was over
It was always a new start
Half asleep, half alive
The sound of you breathing next to me
Half awake, half away
The only place I feel safe
Promise you won’t try to change anything
Promise you won’t try to save me
'Cause between darkness and light, we become blind
But still need some time
To make up my mind about us